The noise was indescribably loud…like a bomb had exploded. That sudden impact of metal on metal.
And yet there I was, sat in my car in the middle of the road at 9.20pm one Tuesday in 2022.
But I was alone…not a soul was around and I couldn’t work out why no one else had heard it?
Feeling dazed I carefully stepped out of my car and realised I’d crashed into a stationary car parked at the side of the road and I’d hit it with such force it was now up on the pavement.
How could this have happened when I was driving home from a dance class?
I managed to park my car off the road, then slowly made my way up the path of the nearest house, and knocked on the door to tell them I’d crashed into their car.
I felt sick, shaking and in total shock, just convinced they’d think I’d been drinking. I hadn’t.
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Fast forward 36 hours and I’m sitting in front of my GP checking me over and trying to find out the cause of my visual disturbance whilst driving.
The only way I can describe what happened to me is what it must feel like to take drugs and drive.
Literally with no warning the road ahead of me had started to look like psychedelic waves.
I thought I could get the short distance home…sadly my brain had other plans!
Within an hour of the crash I felt ok…back to normal apart from the shock of what had happened.
But it literally shakes your confidence when you experience something like this.
Not knowing the reason behind it, but with the fear that if it could randomly happen once, it might do so again.
Want to know the only thing in my life that had changed in the previous 8 days?
I’d started oral HRT.
I didn’t know this at the time, but taking HRT in tablet format can affect you differently due to the way the hormones are metabolized in the liver, the potential for more variable hormone levels, and an increased risk of certain side effects.
I’ve since been told my visual disturbance was more than likely as a result of the fluctuation of the hormones in my body.
Why am I telling you this?
Certainly not to put you off taking oral HRT, or HRT in general.
In fact after a break of a few months I went back on HRT (patches this time).
But that’s a story for another day!
And you might think that given my experiences I’d be an advocate against HRT and have built my business around alternative help for women. But I’m not. I have to take HRT because literally without it I would have taken my own life (several times over).
But whilst I have to take it to help me, I really don’t like having to rely on HRT. It’s that dependancy thing. But I accept that it’s right for me at this moment in time.
HRT is a lifeline for many women, and for some a tiny bit of additional oestrogen will help enormously. For me I’ve had to navigate through different forms of HRT and different levels, trying to find thesweet spot which helped me without giving me additional symptoms.
I’ll give you an example…without HRT I started to experience some depression, with too much HRT I had the same depression along with some anxiety, nose & vaginal bleeding, and dizzy spells thrown in…such fun 🤣
So I guess what I’m trying to say to you is don’t expect HRT to fix everything instantly.
By working on other aspects of your life you can put yourself in the best position physically and emotionally to manage your symptoms…so here are few things to help you…
💦 Hydration – water helps to clear your mind and keeps your body ticking over…like a car needs fuel to operate, we need hydration. And if you can’t stand drinking plain water, add in some fruit or a drop of your favourite essential oil…my absolute fave is Wild Orange.
🥗 Nutrition – cut out as much processed food as possible…the more natural the food, the better…and build your meals around a protein source to start with and you’ll start to notice you’re not hungry and then snacking between meals.
🏃♀️ Movement – get outside (weather permitting) and get some steps in…especially if you have a sedentary job (like me). I guarantee a walk outside will make you feel better.
🧘♀️ Mindfulness – create some space in your life to just ‘be’…getting out of ‘do’ mode and switching your mindset can be challenging because it can throw up a lot of feelings of guilt around taking time for YOU, but you can’t pour from an empty cup. Try meditating, or yoga perhaps.
😴 Sleep – create a sleep routine which sees you switch off screen time a hour or two before you turn in, and also remember that caffeine can stay in your system for up to 10 hours so try reducing the amount you drink and when you drink it. Winding down with a nice relaxing bath and a good book is a beautiful way to slide into a better quality of sleep.
As with everything, making small changes over a period of time is a far better way to make lasting change for your health, so start small and work your way up.
With love as always 💫
Caroline x
Revive Intuitive 
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